Do I

Do I..
Ever really know who I am
Ever fully understand how and why
Do I…
Believe in myself all the time
Know that I will reach my goals …

No, I do not but that is the beauty of life
The future is ours to shape
Live for today and forget about the impending knife
It will always be about quality over quantity
This is the truth
This is our reality
Fight for your own necessity 
Remember your motivations
The reasons you stand instead of lay
The inspirations from your past and today
Those memories that have always made you say “I can do this.”
Forget death, I want to be remembered for the things I did along the way

Most Important

I think for the first time,I feel my age
24 not going on 40
Finally turning back a page
Finally starting to have fun again
I lost that
Not just a how but also a when

One thing is important
One thing is above all others
Enjoy your life and smile
Have so much fun, it smothers

Poem/song I’m workin on

Lessons learned are never easy
Remembering old times
Past was rough, cold and hurricane breezy
You say your name is Cool but I call you Sleazy

You think your moves are big
Don’t matter how much money
Nothing bigger than your kid
Can’t buy a real smile
Real truth
Risk it all for the extra mile
Love runnin longer than the Nile
Ain’t about quantity just quality and style

I speak from the past
Lessons learned are never easy
Remembering old times
Past was rough, cold and hurricane breezy
You say your name is Cool but I call you Sleazy

Don’t forget about the honesty
The truth
The real friends and family
When you were small
Not living so happily
Don’t ever forget the times
When the tears fell rapidly

This be a reminder
To you and myself
Stay up, always workin the grinder
Appreciate
If it ain’t hard than it don’t matter
Don’t forget the work
That keeps food on the platter

I speak from the past
Lessons learned are never easy
Remembering old times
Past was rough, cold and hurricane breezy
You say your name is Cool but I call you Sleazy

New Beginnings and Accomplishments

Big steps
I’m taking big steps
I guess to get anywhere you need to
I guess for me to reach the top I need to
Off to school again
6 years since the last time
Man I remember when…
So proud of the person I came to be
I am thankful for the person I was then
I am excited for this new chapter
Another new beginning of this book with no end.
I’m feeling this self-evolution
Such a feeling can be hard to comprehend

My accomplishments are not just for me
I would not be here if it was just about me
So when I do something big I get overwhelmed
I live to make everyone proud and happy
I follow the right path as I see it
I am the example or so I try to be

I do this for my mom
Man… how I miss her.
See, I made her a promise
One I plan to keep
So on these days of accomplishment
I can’t help but weep.

Poetic Update

Do I dare say?
I’m no longer looking…
My life long quest is complete?
Spent so much time reaching
I got it now, just can’t hit rewind and repeat
Can’t go back to then
Crying
Looking for an answer to when
I write this book
That’s not how it will end

I feel confident and able
Ready to do my part
These legs are nice and stable
Nothing to hide, everything written out on this cyber table

Missing Me

Sometimes I miss myself
The old me
The one that sits on a shelf
Collecting dust
Retired
Flame extinguished, body starting to rust
I miss all the uncertainties
All the randomness and maybes
Life changes when you have a kid
Sometimes I struggle so bad I feel like I’m the baby

So close but so far away…

The maze is ending...
The bars are stained but no longer bending...
These.. unsteady ambitious thoughts are sending...
I have two hands that won't stop lending...
Have I found myself or am I just pretending?