Soulmate, Where Are You?

Posted: July 19, 2014 in Uncategorized

How does someone with so much love

Have no significant other to give

That love to and spend all sorts of time with

I’m so fuckin ready to not wake up alone

I’ll take just hearing your voice

or just you breathing on the other end of the phone

Whoever you are, I know you feel me

I know that you too, are tired of being all alone

Maybe you don’t know who I am

Maybe you do

But god damn whoever you are

I am so fuckin into you

Originally posted on Guide To a Better Mind and Understanding.:

What’s the difference between you and me?
Not a damn fucking thing…
Same person with the same problem
Living in a world that doesn’t really want us to solve them

Moldy green place
Eco not so friendly
Gettin money is the main race
I choose not… shoes won’t lace
You say the way I want to live is a disgrace
Well then be on your way then
Get the fuck out of my face..

There is no time to be nice anymore
The world won’t change with hugs and high hives
We have to shake them right down to their fuckin core
Force the truth upon them
Even out the score
Because at the end of the day
I refuse to be just another government whore.

good night..

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She looks in the mirror 
Unsteady
Unsure 
Needing approval from her reflection
She finds none
Alone and desperate
She feels the sun through the window
The warmth is comforting but false
She can’t breathe
She can feel the chains tighten around her 
She’s trapped in a material world
Where pretty is Kidnapped by diets and make-up
Where her friends try to be each other

She looks but can’t find a way out
Night comes 
Scheduled tears come
Years of pressure has made her a heavy drinker
But now she sits all out of rum

She takes another look in the mirror 
Unsteady
Unsure 
Needing approval from her reflection
She finds none
Alone and desperate
She splashes water on her face
No false comfort.. Just a soul that is done
She can’t stop the tears
Tired of living nightmares

She holds up a razor
Shaking but sure
Blood fills the sink 
One last look
“Finally I’m free “
The last thought she will ever think

Without My Son

Posted: June 15, 2014 in Uncategorized
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Constantly battling with my past
I wish I could find another character to cast
Because as i’m grateful for the lessons
The present self has an unbareable task

Tryin to deal with everything
The fact that I feel like shitty parent
Lately I’ve begun to resent
Myself as a person on a whole, my heart is permanently bent

I put myself in a hole that I never know if I’ll climb out of
Need some luck..
Tryin to catch the ball but I forgot my glove
I go back and forth
Forgetting that word love
I thought I had a strong heart
But now i think it’s more of stubborn shove

I’m more scared than not
War in my heart
I often wonder what keeps me from startin to rot
Push and pull
My soul is being stalked by a thief that can’t be caught

You only live once
One time to do everything you want
One time to uncover the real you, the mystery
Forget about leavin your mark in history
If you worry too much
You’ll end up becoming just another wave in the sea

You only get one life
So fuckin enjoy it
I remember how I use to be
Time came when I was sick of the person starin back at me
Hated myself for ever not listening to the inside of me
Instead I locked myself away and my eyes closed so I couldn’t see
So dead inside all I could hear was fatality
Everyone thought I was doin fine but what was the reality?

Never again 
Never again will I waste time
Whatever breath I have left
Will be used to improve every rhyme
Every heart beat will be stronger
Every hug and kiss will hold love longer
If I ever find true love again
I will forever love song her

The purpose of life is simple
Enjoy it, live for love and passion
Help others be better… compassion
Fuck the grind because it kills the mind
Nature doesn’t live off money
Just honesty and peaceful attraction.

Aside  —  Posted: June 3, 2014 in Uncategorized